Ok well I made a blog before on another account but that one was trash so I decided to start over. Here goes *cracks knuckles* :
Basically my mind at the moment has been an emotional explosion and my moods have been see-sawing all over the place. Alot of it is due to college work and family problems but the vast majority is due to one person. Now my friends who read this will know who i'm on about so I don't need to explain who she is to you random people who might read this.
I'm not really very good at explaining things to peoples faces so I figured writing it down would be alot easier. I'll do the best I can.
First of all do you believe in love at first sight? Because whom I'm talking about although it wasn't quite love at first sight I did like her from the beginning *embarressed face*
So basically about this girl. I love her and she knows it. But what she doesn't know (and I couldn't think of a way to explain) is like in what way I do or whatever. Usually with a guy he claims he loves her and then messes her around. Thankfully I'm not like that because I actually know what decency is and honestly...doing that to a girl is cruel. Thing is I can't stop thinking about this girl but its not the kind of thing where its obsessive (Because thats plain creepy). I kind of care about her in the way that one might care about someone else like that you never want to see them hurt again so you do what you can to ensure that doesn't happen. Sorta like a brother might look after his sister or something like that I dunno its weird to explain.
But anyway the problem is that she likes someone else (even If she acknowledges that he doesn't feel about her in the same way she does about him...thereupon supporting my saying earlier that most guys are assholes...And this guy is really a dick but I won't go into a rant about it.) Unfortunately because love makes you overlook logic/reasoning she believes that he's actually different to what everyone else says and he's a nice person (who knows he might actually be....but from what i've heard and seen I very much doubt it)
Unfortunately with these mood swings going on at the moment I occasionally get really depressed and contemplate on stuff thats happened. Some of the things I think about involve relationships. Its kinda the fact its been a while since I was in one (a lot of that being the fact that I haven't been interested in one for a long time but The one girl that I finally get interested again...more so than ANY other person before and all of this happens,) and all this makes me wonder whether I am condemned to eternal singularity. I mean its not like i'm good looking or have a good personality or anything.
However I have more important things to be worrying about at the moment so yeah.
